Writting Blues, Reading Slump

Sitting in front of this lappy and staring blanky into the space and of course into the bluest sky wonderfully crafted thru my window with empty thoughts on Tuesday afternoon. Listening to a very nice tune from Kacy Musgraves. Its a cool tune anyhow. Dah lama jugak aku tak layan blues lagu ni. I had 2 super duper thick novels crying out loud begging me to read them and enjoy them, but my heart suddenly sank deep into the atlantic ocean, maybe swimming together with a giant king crab. I missed December, I missed the rain, I missed the cold windy weather even its just in my small kampung, but the peace and tranquility is so Lord Of The Rings. Like I can picture myself adventuring with Bilbo Baggins along with the dwarfs to the endless adventure! Missing my other half who is busy finding a decent cash, Alhamdulillah what a hardworking dude he is. 

Anyways, it's a blues and slump that hit me hard right now. I find it difficult just to go back to my books at the moment. My TRB are now staring at me and judging me unconditionally. I woke up super early as possible, finding a peace with The Mighty Rabbul Jalil, is all I need right now. Being honest to my heart that I dont need a human being to confide. It will lead to more headaches and tighten the knot even tighter!!! Damn I hate that!

Sitting here made me immerse in deepest thoughts of what had happened last few days. It's been a year already, but it seems to go on and on with no stops. Doesn't the person feel tired? Rambling the same shit all over again. Can you just let it go. Don't you feel tired? Feel enuf and content??? Vengeance. Thats what it is.  There is a saying, allow your enemies their space to hate, while the process will consume them. All you got to do is sit and watch. Do not response. Its just waste of precious moment of your life. It shall pass once the character is done, where no one knows when. 

Life is much more easier when you dont give a shit.